So, since the last post here I have figured a lot of things out:
1. We will be leaving the church we work at to seek a church that meets our needs
2. I've been working really hard on wedding plans and have bought a dress and am working on bridesmaids dresses. The men's vests and ties are all being made, we're tasting cake next week along with getting pictures done. We'll look for a flower place this summer, and honey moon stuff is done. It might slowly be falling into place
3. I really have been trying to not worry about the rest of it, because it wasn't helping but just keeping me from being able to do the stuff I could do.
This month:
We leave for Baja Mexico in 3 days, and everyone is really excited and ready to be there. It hasn't hit me yet that this is reality and not just wishful thinking. I'm ready to be in the orphanage and playing with kids, I want to be in a spanish speaking country again just so I can hear that beautiful language. I think this trip will be really eye opening for Murray and I since this is our life goal, I hope the Lord is glorified by this next week. I think it will be harder for him than me to let go of constantly being around each other and clinging to these kids who we can bless only for a short time, but I'm sure we will get through it. It's going to break my heart to come home!
As far as stuff here: I've been doing homework like crazy and am getting tired of working all the time on papers and questions and reading. But I'm learning, or at least I hope I am.
Friend stuff: has really been struggling here, because I found out today that all of the guys I called my brothers and a majority if not all of their family will not be able to help out and be at my wedding this summer, and that has me bummed. But also the girls in my life have been super distant. I feel like I'm constantly left out of every plan they make and every joke they tell. Most of them are going to be my bridesmaids and so that has me sad, but even worse, is we used to be such good friends. One of them I was going to go on my semester abroad with, she barely talks to me any more outside of class, and I feel like she doesn't really want me around. Another one I lived in her room when I first came to SBU has recently taken to not talking to me, I think she may even be avoiding me, but when she does I get the feeling like she's just tolerating me or that she doesn't even want to talk to me. I love my roommate but we don't even talk any more, she has her own life and I'm not allowed in. I wish if I had done something they would tell me, or they would tell me how to fix it. I realize I have been super busy but I have free time, like now, I have the rest of the night (granted its 7, but we're in college we don't go to bed until late) just to hang out and do nothing.
I miss these girls and wish that our relationships could be healed and restored.
My mom sold her house on sunday and so we will be living in a hotel type place all summer while she either buys or builds a new house, I'm not sure how this is going to go, but its an adventure and we will cross that bridge when its here.
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